I asked my bf how his day was...

He said "annoying."

I said "Why?"

He said "because it was slow." 

Me: "Can’t be that slow you ain’t talking to me."

Inner Me: "Shut up the world can’t revolve around you"

Me: Well if the world can’t revolve around me what will it revolve around? 

Inner Me: 😩🙄😩

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I love this man. 

He is an embodiment of everything I ever wanted in a partner and all that i forgot I needed.

Trauma does some fucked up shit to you y'all, but the way your brain protects those things are even more crazy.
A lot of those walls come down when you truly fall in love, as they are crashing down before me now. 
Healing. 
The time and space I have right now...in this current moment...no sound but the light tapping of these keys and the space heater to the right of me keeping me from freezing. 

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PEEEEEEAAAACCEEE! 

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We as human beings do not get that shit enough, im telling you!!

I only realized how serious it was when I got to do exactly what I am doing right now. 

Writing to you:
To me. 
To whoever reads these crazy on-going exerpts of mine. 
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I love this! 

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And in no way, shape or form does this scare me. 

The silence that brings forth the rawness. 

The scrapings of yourself that you tucked between bloody fresh walls of newly grown skin.

It's still there! 

Waiting, for you to let the light in.

                    ─ Embracing the darkness